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(sigh) penis, penis, penis, vagina, vagina, vagina -_-. Well school starts tomorrow, i've got motion studies, drawing for storyboarding, and life drawing 2. Aaannnnddd i can't afford to smoke right now, i've got 5 dollas in my account and i just spent it on a 'tall' black berry green tea frapachino. Space is also getting a bit tight in the apartment but i'm trying to keep my cool and just not be there most of the day. I'm sorry, no racism intended, but i freaking love old black landlords, they're nice and never expect the bills on time. I got to take care of my neice, Anastacia, for a few weeks while i got things set up with the place and told my landlord that she was my kid and i was a single mother and now he adores me and thinks i'm so 'strong to take on a child all on my own.' I don't care what anybody says while reading this, given the situation and circumstances I think God would understand the decision. Besides the limited space, everything else is going pretty good. We've got the biggest potheads in the world as our downstairs neighbors but they're decent guys and let us borrow stuff. I didn't get a chance to go to practice the past week and a half which sucks and now i'm pretty out of practice with some of the basic moves but hopefull i'll be back thursday.
xoxo
deni
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Friday, September 01th @ 8:07pm] |
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(sigh) ew. Okay, my mom's not a saint, and she most definately isn't a virgin, but it never fails to trigger my gag reflex every time i see her make out with some guy who just happens to not be my dad. I've seen her kiss guys before and it was gross but today i saw her makeout with my new stepdad and it kinda just hit me.....wow, this guy is staying. He's not gonna leave in the morning so I don't have to look at him and pretend nothing ever happened, he's not gonna sneak through my mom's bedroom window every night, he's actually here for good. They're married, they're fucking, and they're too old to get yet another divorce. Ben isn't a bad guy, he's cool, he's nice, tries a little too hard, but nice. My mom says she didn't marry him for the money but i'm almost fairly certain that was a big piece of it. She told me that when he was showering her with all these gifts and what not and she told him to stop trying to buy her, that it made her feel like a prostitute. And now apparently she's paying him back with me. She'll get pissed when i don't kiss him goodnight or fall at his feet everytime he does something nice for me and gets pissed when I don't do his chores so he doesn't have to do them. And today i told her: I'm not your official currency. Stoping using me to pay back ben because you feel guilty for him buying you nice things. It feels like she's prostituting me out in her place. If you feel guilty then fuck him until you don't, don't get me involved because this isn't my relationship and i want nothing to do with it.
I thought i was completely ready to handle a new man being domninant in what used to be my father's house but I guess I'm not quite there yet. It kinda hits something inside me when I'm in the living room and realize that my dad's probably never going to be there again. I'm never going to see him sitting out on the porch watching soccer again, I'm never going to get to sit with him in our recliner and watch a scary movie again, I'm never going wake up on saturday mornings and hear him cooking breakfast in our kitchen again. It definately sucks. I'll be okay though, i just have to get used to it and get my mom to grow the hell up and and understand that i'm not a little girl anymore.
deni
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Monday, August 21th @ 3:37pm] |
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well, i pay my first month's rent and move in to my apartment september 1st. Ness comes back the 6th hopefully with a whole bunch of stuff that I didn't buy. My stepdad's coming to pick me up on friday to take me back to FL ^_^, mostly so i can pack all my stuff from home and bring it back but i'll be staying until thursday night,woot woot! I don't know if anyone ever noticed but there's a lot of asians here too, i mean, i think we had like maybe 2 or 3 in our high school, here they're like half the majority lol.
Oh and speaking of the apartment it is absolutely backbreakingly kick ass! Its pretty big for a one bedroom, I think anyway, hardwood floors, white walls, nice bathroom,nice kitchen, fireplace, spacious living room, upstairs, patio/porch/someone else's huge roof to walk on, break on, and smoke on. Its awesome and i'm really happy with it. We're paying 650 a month with water included so the only bill we're paying is electric.
P.S. MY PHONE FELL OUT OF MY BAG AND INTO THE MUD AND NOW I CAN ONLY RECIEVE CALLS. I CAN'T MAKE THEM OR LISTEN TO ANY MESSAGES OR TEXTS! SO IF YOU WANT TO CALL ME AND I DON'T ANSWER ITS BECAUSE MY PHONE IS NOT WITH ME, IF I DON'T CALL BACK ITS BECAUSE I CANT, NOT THAT I DON'T LIKE YOU, SO JUST CALL ME BACK UNTIL I PICK UP OKAY?
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MONTGOMERY HALLS SMELLS LIKE ASS AND DEATH! ugh >_< Anyways, so far so good, I'm still looking for a place for ness and me but the money should be coming in soon so I should be getting it soon too. Not much else to say other than I am now the proud owner of the most bitchin hat in savannah!
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Guess what today is! ^_^
6/15/87
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Wednesday, May 03th @ 3:41pm] |
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What the hell is up w david blaine these days? Wasn't he supposed to be a magician? Apparently his latest trick is locking himself in a saltwater filled tank for a week with a catheter up his urethra........................................................................................are you fucking serious? What happened to card tricks and pulling quarters out from behind your ear? Now we have to pay just to see a magician to sit in a tank? I'm sorry but magic is getting pretty fucking lazy around here. They used to pull rabbits outta hats and saw human beings in half and now they just lock themselves away and sit on their ass for a few days ..............don't prisoners and the homeless do that everyday for free? I could pretty much walk to forcythe park and see the same thing basically.
Anyways, school's crazy. I'm at that point where I can't break even with the work load again. I've gotta b in drawing II so i'm not really worried there but I've got a D in Survey I(he's only collected like 3 things so I've still gotta chance to raise a few grades) and I either have a B or C in color theory. Right now I just have to redo my color theory project due monday and do study notecards for my survey test on the 9th. Other than that I'm cool.
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